And when I cry, would you know?

Maybe I've played my game wrong. Made th wrong move. Coz I'm not feeling it anymore.
No I'm not.

Found this.
"Home again.I really hope i've heard you.Knowing the great distance we stay apart, you feel all lonely without me.You know what? I feel the same way too! Its not like i would not wish to think about you either.I constantly remind myself to message you whenever i could,cause in my life, not every day is messaging day or talking day.I'd wish to see you everyday if i could & let you know that i care for you!Iam happy enough that i got to see you today! IWANTMYDRUGEVERYDAY!"

Makes me think. You understood how she felt, knew what t do, and you shared th same feeling that I'm feeling now. And seeing how much you loved her(expressed through words) even though she treated you like shit(from what you said) makes me feel like I'm her shit. Nothing t you.

She was lonely, without you. Made th effort t at least text her. Even wanted her by your side everyday.

Doesnt it sound familiar? Guess you wouldnt understand either. Coz it's different. Liking me without a reason. I've told friends about it, they say it's impossible. Well prolly possible in your case. Maybe you werent even sure from th start. Getting together with me coz you couldnt get J? I'm just guessing. Liking me without a reason. It just means it's all pointless. We're different. Truly are. Don't think we'll ever fit into a perfect picture in th future. We dont understand each other. For example, you'd prolly be thinking now "fuck! this naggy woman think so much again! cb, for what fuck sia". And I dont understand you fully now, trying but slowly dying. Not giving up yet, at least i think. Idk. You knew how much I wanted t see you before school starts, spend time alone with you. What do I get? Nothing. I dont think you'll ever be that guy who cares for me or th one who's there for me at th end of th day, listening t my cries and woes and showering me with love and attention or whateverfuck. Coz you'll always be sleeping when I'm awake and vice versa. Or, you wont call until I call. Hardly text now, idkwtfwhy as well. I wait patiently, out of my own will, for you t come home everyday, for your call. And these few days, not even a simple text. I have t initiate it. And apparently, you're busy with your own shit t even reply me. Zilch. And what are you doing now, drinking. Am I in your heart? Strongly doubt so.

K enough said, there's much more, but I'll keep it to myself. I'm totally contemplating now. Really dont wish t talk/see you right now(I'm too upset) even though I really want t. So. Schools starting next week. And I'll be busy with tuitions all week. So, I'll see you when I see you.