I want you back.

Doing tkam now. Can someone just do it for me? I'll pay you. REALLY.
:(

Rachel damn sad k, got tkam and math, hafta worry about ms kok staring me down and blasting my eardrums :( scaredscareddddd.

I've got 7 friends online on fb and none of them are my classmates. Sigh. Why do I even bother about my end year grades really. Ok, it's coz I don't wna retain anymore! And I won't! With hisherhisherhishishisherhisherherhis encouragement, I won't disappoint.

Oh! And my mummy and I made an agreement(with a lil of my tuition teacher's help). She'll reward me with diff amounts for each grade I get A1 - C5. Incentives ^^ hahhahaha. Trust me, amount is quite alot. Like, 200 for A1? HELLO I LOVE MY MUMMY. So, I have t fucking work hard then can buy manymany stuffs for baby&I :)

Ok, luckily, this is real and I won't be able t go "Ok, Rachel stop dreaming and focus on your work now!" but I can say "Rachel, think more, study more, then money more!" :B teehee.

Hahahhahahaa, shit lah me. Anyway, waking up earlier t meet Adelia&Sarah t finish up hmwk in class. Sigh. Things guai people(me) do t avoid getting a scolding, which could lead t a fucky day.
Awesome! Bye!!

No more calls from you anymore.

I just woke up from a nap(don't norm take one) but yes, I feel so energized! :) my mummy bought me some book from th expo, th title's stupid ok. Don't even think it'll even help!

Looking through term 3's timetable nowwwwww. (hold on, looking)

AND WTHECK. 2 periods for each sub for th whole entire day on monday!! ugh. So gna pon mondays this time :/ oh god, there's lit, english, bio & math tmrw. Shit, I haven't even done any of those hmwks! Ms Kok's gna kill me. I dont even know where's my math hmwk! And there's 2 sets of it! Knnbccb.

Suddenly I'm reminded of him, always asking me t calm down & relax and he'll help me through it. No not andrew. Sigh. Should I skip school tmrw? Hmm..

I've been thinking, since sg is so small. And there's alrdy 400++ people infected with th H1N1, why arent anyone around me infected? So weird. None of my teachers are, neither are my friends nor family. Well, I dont mean that I want any of them t get it. But still, it's weird that any of us dont. Weeeeeird! :o

PROCRASTINATION.

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Ok. I'm done with th stupid Dracula compre that was due last term. :/ I'm only focused on finding my math now. I dont want t be murdered my ms kok :( howhow.

Heh, I'm damn happy now, I'm like drinking bubbletea, ALL TIME FAV. Like, it makes me much happier, it relieves my stress! :) hohoho. It makes no sense but whtev ^^ Harper's Island on soon! Or izzit now? I'm addicted t it. & I totally belittled th game pixel ranger on fb.

Gna be random now but, I love th stuff I bought from th flea! Cant wait t wear them, few full outfits, literally :D okay, gna go watch HI now, bai.

Oh! I was supposed t use someone's bag for school, but that someone hasn't passed it t me. Damnnnnnnn idw use mine :( rah

So.. you just got home, texted, said sorry. So what? You went t bathe. Didnt even call. Prolly 'want' t, thought of it. But 'cant'. Maybe you're sleeping now. Too tired, blahblah. Mom's home. Or you're prolly downstairs slacking with friends again.

Excuses, excuses. Yawn, so boring. So cliché.

Rah. I've got tons of hmwk. And truth is, I reallyyyyyyy cbb about them. Srsly. Just bring on th tests and classes. I need no hmwk. Shit, hmwk for what? Makes no sense, t me at least.

"You shouldn't be angry over this"
"It's not worth getting angry over"
"You have no need to get angry"
"Why are you making such a big fuss out of it?"
"It's not that"
"Sorry"

I'm not who you want me t be & I hope you remember that.
I'll never be her.

Stupid

You broke my heart.
But I still love you.
Why.

fuck time.

No more flea :( staying home t study. rah.

And when I cry, would you know?

Maybe I've played my game wrong. Made th wrong move. Coz I'm not feeling it anymore.
No I'm not.

Found this.
"Home again.I really hope i've heard you.Knowing the great distance we stay apart, you feel all lonely without me.You know what? I feel the same way too! Its not like i would not wish to think about you either.I constantly remind myself to message you whenever i could,cause in my life, not every day is messaging day or talking day.I'd wish to see you everyday if i could & let you know that i care for you!Iam happy enough that i got to see you today! IWANTMYDRUGEVERYDAY!"

Makes me think. You understood how she felt, knew what t do, and you shared th same feeling that I'm feeling now. And seeing how much you loved her(expressed through words) even though she treated you like shit(from what you said) makes me feel like I'm her shit. Nothing t you.

She was lonely, without you. Made th effort t at least text her. Even wanted her by your side everyday.

Doesnt it sound familiar? Guess you wouldnt understand either. Coz it's different. Liking me without a reason. I've told friends about it, they say it's impossible. Well prolly possible in your case. Maybe you werent even sure from th start. Getting together with me coz you couldnt get J? I'm just guessing. Liking me without a reason. It just means it's all pointless. We're different. Truly are. Don't think we'll ever fit into a perfect picture in th future. We dont understand each other. For example, you'd prolly be thinking now "fuck! this naggy woman think so much again! cb, for what fuck sia". And I dont understand you fully now, trying but slowly dying. Not giving up yet, at least i think. Idk. You knew how much I wanted t see you before school starts, spend time alone with you. What do I get? Nothing. I dont think you'll ever be that guy who cares for me or th one who's there for me at th end of th day, listening t my cries and woes and showering me with love and attention or whateverfuck. Coz you'll always be sleeping when I'm awake and vice versa. Or, you wont call until I call. Hardly text now, idkwtfwhy as well. I wait patiently, out of my own will, for you t come home everyday, for your call. And these few days, not even a simple text. I have t initiate it. And apparently, you're busy with your own shit t even reply me. Zilch. And what are you doing now, drinking. Am I in your heart? Strongly doubt so.

K enough said, there's much more, but I'll keep it to myself. I'm totally contemplating now. Really dont wish t talk/see you right now(I'm too upset) even though I really want t. So. Schools starting next week. And I'll be busy with tuitions all week. So, I'll see you when I see you.

You're not th one for me

Totally skipped sleeping last night, and went out early this morning. Flea-ed today! :) bought many shitz. Bought like 4 shirts for love and like dozens of stuffs for moi :D hahahahhaha. Happy! But my eyes got so fucking dry :/ coz I was just too tired. After th flea, vc and I met up with alph, reuben, khee&gf. It has been a v.long time since I last saw them :) totally miss them, but I was really just too tired t say much, and coz I was pissed too.

Gg t th flea tmrw again with vc&alph, not gna spend much though, already spent enough! :) and yesssss, right now I'm halfway of happy and angry. Ok, maybe not angry, just damn sad&disappointed.

Doesnt it remind you of th first incident? Promised. Broke it. High hopes, killed it. Sigh. I really hate people who break promises. Really do. No planning was done, neither was there any time management. Idk, idc, just fuck this shit.

I cry, I wont tell. Talk to you, I wont.

BET YOU'RE HAVING FUN NOW NOT EVEN THINKING/CARING ABOUT ME. Definitely are. Happy drinking, coz that's all you care about.
Fun.

Found this: The Michael Jackson 911 Call

One day in your life
You'll remember a place
Someone touching your face
You'll come back and you'll look around you

One day in your life
You'll remember the love you found here
You'll remember me somehow
Though you don't need me now
I will stay in your heart
And when things fall apart
You'll remember one day . . .

One day in your life
When you find that you're always waiting
For a love we used to share
Just call my name, and I'll be there

You'll remember me somehow
Though you don't need me now
I will stay in your heart
And when things fall apart
You'll remember one day . . .

One day in your life
When you find that you're always longing
For a love we used to share
Just call my name, and I'll be there

One day in your life

Ok. So everyone knows about his death now(read this). Sad. Damn sad. & we all heard it in th morning when we were off t work. Totally ruined my day. I love MJ, we all love MJ. He touched th hearts of 3 generations. Our grandparents', parents' and ours. Incredible & Invincible too, like his song.

He was my childhood. Always have, always will. So goodbye, forever *sniff sniff* (lol, so drama), but yes, I bet I'm not th only one who's on th verge of tearing.

K, enough of that, I dont want my mood down. So, I just installed Windows Ex 8, but there's like not much difference in speed? :/ they should revamp th whole thing, make it cool! :) hahahahaha. My sleeping clock so wronggggggggg ;(

OH. I'll be at titans tmrw. Many people will! :) gna be spotting so many familiar faces, hope * will be there! Ok byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

P.S : I'm gna post one of his awesome songs. Th lyrics is definitely th icing on th cake. Pleez listen k :)

Omg ok I told myself that I'd only take a short nap & wake up @ 12, but I refused t wake up then and only awoke @ 9. Shittttttttttttttt. Now I'm really not gna sleep tonight manz. :(

Eyes hurt :(

H166N137

Havent been up this early since godknowswhen, or rather havent been skipping sleep since a longnong time :/ caught up with Johnny last night, updated each other. Then talked t Fuad on th phone for over an hour, and I must say that he has changed! Goodgood :) all th best man!

Didnt sleep for like th whole night, planning&hoping that I can get my body clock back t norm by sleeping early tonight! Had macs earlier on @ kallang, all I can say is awesomeeeeeeeeeee hahahhahaa. Have not eaten macs breakfast outside since earlier this month? But now I so full :(

OH. I got fever, shit. H1N1? Spread t everyone, hahahahahaa. But why dont they call it H2N2 or H166N137 or smth? Like chemistry, nice k! lollllllll. Cannot take it.Must.Nap.Now. Up at 12 again byeeeeee. :)

Nonsensical nonsense

Enough beating around th bushes.
Enough lame excuses.
Enough bullshitting.

I dont need any of this k. Get t th point. & no I cbb t ask anymore.

i wuvwuv rod ^^

Rod Stewart is classic baby! His songs are th shit & I'm in love with every, single one of them :) it's even so difficult t find this one particular song(my all-time fav!!) in youtube k. So, hafta search on imeem & guess what? There's only one search result for this song. But th sad thing is that it only gives viewers a 30 second preview on blogs.

And good enough, playlist plays th full song! :) happyhappy.

Baby, this song's for youuuuuuuuuuuu. ENJOYY hahahahahaha.

P.S: This song's on auto play so y'all are gna be hearing this thing till it's gone. Too bad. I love it hehehe. :)

Happy today! :) well gg over t baby's house aint a bad idea.

1. Would have wasted my time sleeping in&late @ home.
2. Wouldnt have studied @ home.
3. Wouldnt have gotten t see him if I stayed home.
4. Able t take care of my sick boy! :)

Well I'm not having sufficient sleep. Only slept for 2 hours? :/ killllllllllllllll. A quarter of my day was spent there, 3hrs dedicated t taking care of him & I must say, I make a good nurse!! hahahahahahaha. loveloveloveloveloveloveloveyoubabyboy! (L)

I hate th holz. My body is not functioning well. Not at all. RAH. I want school t start. But, I wont be seeing baby as often anymorez. Whywhywhy so cruel. 80l

Take care of yourself k baby! I love you! xoxo :)

I'm wearing your shirt, loveeeeeeeeeeeeee :) hahahhahahaa. omg I look like I've got buck tooth in th third picture :B hee, itoy (L)

I went t L4D with van today! Omg I swear we're addicted t it man! Damn niceeeeee :) and then we towned after that. In th train home, there was this pretty chinese woman(which you'd prolly think that she'd be graceful & ladylike) who started t scratch in SICKENING places on her body k. Her armpits, her dirty neck, her arms, her waist(which she lifted her jacket up t do so) and then under her bra strap, and inside. WHICH IS SO NOT GRACEFUL AND UNLADYLIKE. She had red spots all over.

If she has chickenpox, then she's so unconsiderate! I mean, hello? I have never gotten it, and no thank you, I don't wna get it. And there was this guy who was rudely coughing his way throughout th journey, without covering his mouth.

People, please think for others, I don't wna die so early from any possible, undiscovered diseases. Kkthxz.

Oh yea, L4D @ 1pm tmrwwwwwwwwww :) :) :)!

Awesome new song from Katy Perry LILY ALLEN I mean! FUCK YOU :o)

I'm reverting back t my old sleeping ways, and it's th last week of th hols. Gawd it's so hard t adjust back t my normal good self :/ ok anyway! I completed whatever I was doing @ 7.20am this morning :O totally made ok! So proud of myself ^^ hahahahahaha.

Now, my mind's so messed up, (pauses t smell hair- omg my hair smells damn nice!), it's cluttered with so many things which I don't think I can figure what each of them are. Cause it's so messy! Cant think straight whywhywhy.

Anyway, I NEED MONEY. Who doesnt? But why are some people just so privileged huhuh?? I bet Vanna knows who I'm talking about. Rah.

(omg picture so blur)

:) happy first month baby! <3

Glad that you stayed over & what you made for me :) will treasure it for life! hahahahhaa. & this is one of th best mornings so far this year! All this will be etched in my head for life and i love you love you love you alot! :)

Rah, if only we weren't pigs(waking up only at 6pm :/), but ah well love having you beside me. hahahhahaha, I'm not actually thinking properly right now, and think that I totally am not constructing proper sentences. But heck it k, th whole purpose for this post is t tell you that, I appreciate you, treasure you, adore you, love you, & I'm sticking t you for life too bad :B

And I really miss you right now, and I DO WNA GO CLUB WITH YOU K. Really broke lah :/ sooooooo you'll always be my baby boy & once again, LOVE YOU HONEY HAPPY 1ST MONTH <3>(inserts a gazillion kisses&hugs)

Ate at Seoul Garden, played L4D & now I'm home. That should sum up my day.

OMG. 11:11!! Well, I hope it's him :/ does 11:11 mean anything anymore? I wonder.

Yet another button flew off my handphone, 5 gone, 1 more t go. Hahahahahhaa. I'm weird :3 don't feel like texting anyone with this fucked up phone. Can I get a sidekick please oh please? :)
Vanna told me about th Mona Lisa thing today and she asked me t go for it, who wants t go with me? :D I reallyreallyreally wna go & see it!

Ah, damn sick & tired now, ima go and shower first then prolly hit th sack!

Adieu!

He's out clubbing, having fun. I'm at home, failing t sleep. And I'm dead hungry too. Oh, th call of hunger. Managed t find my box of uneaten beehoon since noon in th fridge. Thought it would be fine t eat, but noooooooooo, it's so muthafucking cold!! Well, isn't this pathetic? Huh? Huh?

Good morning :o/

Beyonce's new song, Brokenhearted Girl. Check it out! :) I'm in love with it.

I don't wanna be without you baby~

Ok. I woke up at 4.30pm today, and was gna have tuition @ 5pm. I was late. Broke (really), and super duper tired. Anyway, had an awesome 2 hours of fun yesterday night! :) danced like crazy, an I was introduced t a whole different side of life! Best thing of it was, baby being there with me :) hahahaha.

Had a damn good time shopping yesterday! Splurged, literally. I feel so happy. :3 gawd, I'm having a fever & flu. COULD IT BE H1N1??? stay away from me! :) hahahahahhaa. I told th doc that I wna be admitted t th hospital. He laughed!! It's not funny k, I just wna feel what it's like t be there lol :/

& sg's getting t be so scary, I mean, won't people get paranoid? Strangers start t sneeze/cough and you go like, whoaaaa does he have it? what if I get it?!, ok maybe I'm th only one who thinks like that, but this is scary ok!

Anyway, miss him miss him miss him. And ima go and shower now, so au revoir :)

Goddddddd, I'm so damn bored. :/ TELL ME WHY IS LIFE SO DULL. To me, th world is gray. And at this point I don't feel like changing it t make it any better. Baby's sleeping and idk what t do :3 i love him so so much :B hahhahahahahhaa. lolol, th nearest thing t me now is a hld puncher. It's pink. I hate pink. Ok, it really depends actually lol, shit I'm really really bored.

Daddy hasn't fixed up th whole home theatre thingy lol. And why is everyone gg overseas!! I want too, but i cant :( stupid shit. I need t shop @ m'sia. Why am I not granted this simple wish! Rah. Did I say how much I love my baby? LOVE HIM T DEATHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Looks so cute when he's sleeping hahahahhahahahaha :o}

I'm finally home! :) Went for th F1 pit flea with vc today, AWESOMEEEEEEE. hahahaha. Th location was good, th space was huge, many, many good bargains & clothes. Thumbs up. But I didnt have enough cash! >:( THUMBS DOWN. Well anyway, I saw many people today. People who made me happy, annoyed & one who just took my breath away. I swearrrrr :3

Left at about 7, headed down t novena t meet my family. Had dinner & played pool :) an extra cup of starbucks gg along with it will be a great combo yaw. Anyway, iamsotirednow. And i'm waiting for baby t decide on whether he's coming over today. Hope he says yes! Anyway, ima go and shop nowwwwww. Ciaoo.

Oh! Oh! Daddy bought a projector + screen!!!! Watching movies at home, awesome, but there wont be th great surround sound though :/

Hi!! This blog is finally up. Well, I just thought of getting one again after th other died. Couldn't really decide on lj or blogger, modern or classic templates. But heck, i'd just settle with this first cause it's rather simple and nice, and see what I can do with it along th way! :)

Au revoir :o)