6:40am

So maybe I should start posting up here once again.

I only woke up at 7:20pm yesterday, and omg it's only the 11th hour since I've been up. I have too much energy to hit the sack and it's 6:40am now. Someone has got to be around me :(

I'm sorry I'm nothing like her. We've been through thick&thin, and we should be tight, but since you metaphorically prefer the thin to thick, I don't think I want to try anymore.

Leave me out, continue doing that. I don't want to feel anything anymore.

Really. I have, had enough.

SOLO

Starting to feel disgust, where you 3 are concerned. I can barely keep my eyes on all of you for just 4 seconds.

(I need a barf bag)
Oh God.

We were never close. I never was. Some great bull it was.

I'm better off alone without you 3.

I'm riding solo.

P.S: I hope you all get into big shit & suffer.

HIGH

PULAU UBIN TMRW BAII

Goodbye shithead.

Long time, since I've been here. Just did this poll for a friend, one of the questions was "Are you happier at the start of this year or happier at year end now?", which got me trying to recall whatever happened at the start, and apparently I can't remember no shit.

Omggggggg I kinda wish I had more money, then I can have much more fun than I'm having now :) hehe. Wherever, whenever, with WHOEVER I want. HELL YEA! Buttttttt, it'll all just be wishful thinking :( shittttt, I miss starbucks with those people I used to go with. Sigh.

Vannnnnn: AaaaAaaaaaaAh
Rachhhhh: OoooOooooOoohhh

hahahhahahahhaa

Old times. Can't wait to leave this fuckn hell hole for M'sia. 1 more day. YES.

(:

"i love you also means i love you more than anyone loves you, or has loved you, or will love you, and also, i love you in a way that no one loves you, or has loved you, or will love you, and also, i love you in a way that i love no one else, and never have loved anyone else, and never will love anyone else."

Ok I got this from FLB & this is exactly how I feel. You'll never understand. And all th time before I sleep, I lay in bed, and think about what we once shared.

1. Th spooky shitz, th time when we just sat together on my bed watching ghost vids, and one just popped out at us and I shrieked and teared, you wiped away my tears for me... :)

2. Our first few shy kisses(haha). You were shy but just took initiative th whole time, dived in but I backed away quick! hahaha. Finally lost to you coz you cornered my head while we were sitting down..... :) oh damnnnnnnn.

3. Th first time you stayed over at my house, but had to sleep in separate rooms coz of conservative parentz. Hahahaha. Once they left for work&shut th heavy front door, I just went over to your room and jumped into your arms. But we went back to my coldcold room to sleep&snuggle in bed together :)

4. This day I woke up to numerous annoying callz on my hp and simply ignored them thinking that they'd stop. But they didn't. You called me 30+ times on my hp&house phone to get me to wake up with a few text msgs too. Turns out you were at my doorstep @ 7.10am to surprise me&too to make up for sth (; that was so sweettttttt.

5. You wanted me to change my fb name to Rachel Broke Bells to show our relationship. Hahaha. That was cool.

6. Our first date to OCH. We went there on a long bus ride as 2 friends-almost-lovers people, came back already lying on each other's shoulder/head on th ride :) so nice. Remember th gay dude we met @ cheers?

7. Remember th BBP? One song played everytime we talked? Our "little secret"? And kiss me thru th phone? Haha. All etched into my mind k. There are so much more, but these few are what's most memorable to me.

Maybe I'll update on those. I wna keep a list of what I rmb. And it's not that I have to, but it's more of a "Want" to thing. I want to keep it as a memory. And I'm not a dumbfoolishfuck for doing it k.

If need be.

I got so used to him not replying, texting, calling or rather just conversing with me that now I don't even have a clue on how to reply. How?

Left school early ytd, it bore me, I was tired&I did have a headache. A fucky one at that. I couldn't get myself to go to school today either. All I can think about is you, awfully true. Fuckthisshit srsly. Like you give a damn. -.-

Ciao.

HI ALL. K, it's 5:25am and I have been awake all nighttttttttt. That's not good at all. Nope, it isn't. School's in 2 hours and I don't feel happy :/ Hope school helps me get my life back on track, since I can't do so. Ciao.

Good morning!

5:08am and I'm still up&not one bit tired :/ seeeeeeeeeee, Rachel so screwed nowz :( sleep in th morning and wake up around evening? Not even my usual 12 hours of lazy sleep! Ra.

And I know many people who are dreading th arrival of sept 24th, but not me! :) :) I'M GNA GET MY FUCKN DESERVED 400 DAWLUHZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ YAYAY^^ oh goshhhhhhh i cannot waitwaitwait! hehehehe.

Oh and those of you who knows about my plan of celebrating my sweet 16? I tmay be changed, like th venue or wtv, COZ I JUST WNA SPEND MY MONEY ON OTHER STUFFZ <: hehehehehehhee. Thinking about it just make me soooooo elated {: SRSLY.CANT.WAIT.