I murder. You scream.

3:51am

2011-11-14T03:59:00.001+08:00

I think my body clock is finally back to normal. Chilling while waiting for the time to go back to school/army.

Went to the ACS(B)'s carnival on Saturday, and helllllllllll....... it SUCKED. Really badly.

Took pictures when we had too much time to waste.

Day 195

2011-11-11T12:12:00.001+08:00

We've went through so much and I'm glad we're still as strong as ever. I love you, Jordan. I hope I won't get hurt anymore though, 'cause it would just be too much.

Truly hurt.

2011-08-02T21:05:00.001+08:00

I should give 2 fucks about my feelings and more for yours.

:( & :):):)

2011-07-21T04:29:00.004+08:00

Really, REALLY miss Jordan :(:(:( the days he's in the army make me realize how much I actually care for him, or rather how much he matters to me. Fuuuuuuuuuuuuck :(

This is the first time I've felt that time spent in a relationship is actually pretty quick! It really actually feels like our 1st month together, but in actual fact, there's 10 more days to our 3rd month! :O *flabbergasted*

Also, this relationship is the best one ever :) I'm all smiles and we have not yet had quarrel :) maybe some misunderstandings/disagreements, but nothing like a quarrel! Glaaaaaad <: hhahahahha.

Jordan is the best.

2011-07-13T06:56:00.011+08:00

Finally made the zoo trip happen! :) but we got there 2 hours before closing :( sucks but it was really fun! Jordan & I laughed a lot, just being retarded and wacky haha. Or that could have just might be all me.

I really wanted to visit the pig exhibit, but we didn't get a chance to, nor find it :( neither did we make it to the "playground" of the zoo nor visit all exhibits! I'm pretty sure our favorite one was the baboons :D 'cause we spent the most time there! <; My outfit for the day was really cute and the weather was really forgiving :) and who else better to spend it with than my boyfriend? <3

They look like tumors!

This one's just gross :/

This baboon's wounded :(

Omg I really love elephants :)

The shot's nice! The background however, not so haha

Ew yea I know.

Dinner with the boy!

HAHAHAHAHA yes, weird ass couple.

So damn cute <3

We don't have much pictures together 'cause I look horrible compared to him in pictures :( in person too but I look better in 3D that's all! :) hehehehehe. OKAY I SERIOUSLY NEED TO SLEEP. It's 8:19am!!

OH! OH! CAN'T WAIT FOR SCIENCE CENTRE THIS WEEK END :)

2011-07-08T17:13:00.000+08:00

Guys who tear are not pussies.

2011-06-27T09:25:00.005+08:00

Yesterday, 26/06/2011, was definitely a day to remember.

I teared because I was very sad that Jordan and I don't get enough time together. Once I teared, he started tearing too. All because he didn't want to see me hurt and said this while tearing "I'll never leave you."

I love you, Jordan, so much <3

4 more days till we hit the 2nd month of us being together, I can't wait :)

2011-05-28T00:11:00.002+08:00

Watched POTC 4 with Jordan earlier, it was good, but in a funny way - senseless. I love spending every second with him <3 he's awesome.

Something ruined my mood at the end of the day though, I really wonder when any of that will stop. I hope soon.

Going to the Zoo tmrw with my boy anyway, I'm happy about that! Also because he'll be back by my side (: awesome, night!

2011-05-24T23:49:00.001+08:00

J <3

No :(

2011-05-24T03:42:00.001+08:00

God, don't let Jordan go to Taiwan for 3 weeks, please? :(

I will study so fucking hard.

I don't want him you to go :(

2011-05-24T03:39:00.000+08:00

Miracle.

2011-05-22T06:32:00.002+08:00

My boy just read out the letter he wrote to me. Moved me to tears :(

I certainly believe in miracles now ♥

I'm very afraid of the future, I cannot lose you.

2011-05-22T03:54:00.001+08:00

There is no combination of words I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing, but I can try for your heart
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
Like a, shoebox of photographs
With sepiatone loving
Love is the answer,
At least for most of the questions in my heart
Like why are we here? And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy and
Sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing, it's always better when we're together

Mmm, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, we'll look at the stars when we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

And all of these moments
Just might find their way into my dreams tonight
But I know that they'll be gone
When the morning light sings
And brings new things
For tomorrow night you see
That they'll be gone too
Too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find their way
Into my day to day scene
I'd be under the impression
I was somewhere in between
With only two
Just me and you
Not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be
We'll sit beneath the mango tree now

It's always better when we're together
Mmm, we're somewhere in between together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

Mmm, mmm, mmm

I believe in memories
They look so, so pretty when I sleep
Hey now, and when I wake up,
You look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time,
And there is no, no song I could sing
And there is no, combination of words I could say
But I will still tell you one thing
We're better together.

I miss you really, and am super bored :(

2011-05-22T03:52:00.000+08:00

Aquarius and a Scorpio Zodiac Sign
You two make a tempestuous duo because of your differing values and approaches to life and love. One may want to delve into emotional issues fully, while the other would rather a volley of ideas and opinions. Your differences may be the magnet that draws you together.

Scorpio and an Aquarius Zodiac Sign
This dynamic duo can fuel a rather tempestuous relationship, with both partners vying for the upper hand. It can be a push-pull union that takes much work to sustain, but the sexual dynamism makes it all worth the effort. There is nothing dull here.

Scorpio Woman and Aquarius Man Love Compatibility

2011-05-22T03:51:00.001+08:00

Problems will arise between the two when Scorpio woman tries to bind Aquarius man from his freedom, something he feels is his given right to have. He will rebel against these ties and hurt her feelings. She will, in turn, show anger, jealousy and rage and even go along through life as if he doesn’t even exist. She will draw her feelings back and hide them deep within her and appear to not care as to whether he does what he wants to do or not. To break the intensity between them, Aquarius man will have to step up and do so. If he can turn back toward Scorpio woman in hopes she has learned to deal with his freedom issues, he’ll be able to help her in making amends, however if not, there will be the issues of him losing his self control. She may appear to be composed toward him on the outside, but deep within her anger still rages on. Without proper communication, they will not be able to come to terms with the problems that arise in this aspect.

In a mutual bond between the two, they can each learn from the other one. Aquarius man’s weaknesses are Scorpio woman’s strengths as her weaknesses are his strengths. He can teach her to be a bit more free and not such a stickler when it comes to putting her foot down with suspicion and possessiveness. She, in turn, can show him a bit more self control when it comes to losing his cool. What happens in the end is as unpredictable as the future.

TRUE

Relationship Compatibilities

2011-05-22T03:46:00.001+08:00

#Scoripio - #Aquarius :
Given their likes and dislikes, as well as their similarities versus what differs between them, a relationship that involves a Scorpio and an Aquarius will definitely be dynamic and it will more than likely be quite interesting and vibrant. The final outcome of such a bond is actually quite unpredictable.

heehee :)

#Aquarius - #Scorpio: In all aspects of this relationship, Scorpio can teach Aquarius the tactics of self control and discipline and Aquarius can return the favor in teaching Scorpio the ability to let things go and not hold such a grudge on everyone who crosses them. Scorpio often gets angry and will keep that anger on the person who crosses them. However, Aquarius isn’t always so tactful but when they do get angry, it comes in a frenzied attack so some of Scorpion’s self control will come in quite handy in this situation. In the monetary world, Scorpio is quite cautious with their buck. This will be good for Aquarius since they won’t even remember if they got that buck to spend or if they have already spent it.

I'm bored really :(

2011-05-22T03:45:00.000+08:00

#Scorpio : To handle a scorpio, the romantic partner must be clever and willful, and strong enough to make scorpio own up to the little manipulation games that g on. The reward for all this work is the most satisfying sex life imaginable.

#Aquarius : To keep an Aquarius, the partner must be alert and intellectually stimulating. It's hard for an aquarian to tolerate a person who is so irrational and insecure that they would think their feelings matter.

2011-05-22T03:42:00.001+08:00

#Scorpio&Aquarius: This surprisingly good match is based on the ability both signs have to remain focused on their goals and stand their respective ground in any argument.

OMG AND I THOUGHT WE WERE JUST OPPOSITES.

#Aquarius Lover : They love to give pleasure, in keeping with their altruistic and philanthropic spirit. They also tend to seek agreement in your friendly and harmonious way, a real boon in the give and take of partnership. Aquarius also adore vulnerability in a lover. They need a companion who can help them get in touch with their innermost feelings and teach them to put the analyzing aside.

#Scorpio Lover : In a relationship a scorpio likes to be in charge, and you convey it right from the start. This can make for an interesting and dynamic relationship. A scorpio is clear when they want the absolute best where romance is concerned. Any relationship, which gives a scorpio the sense of power, wins hands down. A scorpio has a steely determination and a strong sense of what they really want. They are quick in finding the right lover, and this makes life very easy for them. As long as a scorpio win, there is harmony in the relationship. [not true ):]

2011-05-22T03:30:00.002+08:00

Baby, I don't know if you'll read my blog but if you do...

Aquarius-Pisces Cusp sign ( Feb 18 - Feb 22)

"Aquarius-Pisces is compassionate, imaginative and sympathetic to others. They set goals, but they may procrastinate or be so disorganized that they create their own obstacles. They may be eccentric and offbeat, but they are definitely original. They are often multi-talented and feel the need to change the world. This may be difficult since they can be painfully shy. They are sometimes blessed with incredible musical abilities.

Aquarius-Pisces likes to socialize. Being with others helps them relieve stress and anxiety. They love water activities. They are flirtatious and romantic, and they genuinely care for others. Their compassion is all-encompassing. They have a unique angle on the world that others just don't see.

Aquarius-Pisces is a natural psychic. If they don't get support for this at an early age, they will shut it down and pretend it doesn't exist. It may be difficult for them to open up to others once they realize they see things differently because they don't want to be ridiculed.

The Cusp of Sensitivity is known for tolerance, sensitivity, uniqueness, talent, artistic merit, emotions, practicality, dreaming, sensuality, idealism, flirtatiousness, pride, loyalty, romance, compassion, sympathy and imagination. They may also be pessimistic, hyper-sensitive, moody, secretive, impatient, stubborn, aloof, cold and quarrelsome.

Some would call Aquarius-Pisces cusp a bit peculiar. They like luxury, and this desire may keep them in the day to day world enough to keep their business obligations. Their kind nature can make them overbook their time, trying to oblige everyone; then when they forget an engagement, they let people down. While they can exaggerate their accomplishments, they often decline telling about their failures or troubles. They love their freedom, and their dreaminess can lead to spiritual depth and insight. They may be responsible for amazing creative works. People are attracted to them, and in well balanced circumstances, they enjoy travel as well as delving into science or religion.

Heehee :)

Today is a FUCKED UP day.

2011-05-21T23:10:00.002+08:00

Everything went wrong. EVERYTHING.

1. Attacked by 1 cat, 1 rat, 3 cockroaches, 1 fly, 2 stray dogs, 1 wasp. (Shuyi and I)

2. Didn't wake up in time to pick my boy up from camp.

3. Our plans for dinner got ruined by his parents :/

4. My BB hot key came out.

5. Another fucking roach appeared and jumped onto my bed.

Hate today.

But, I love how Jordan and I love each other so much <3

2011-05-20T01:32:00.002+08:00

Picked my boy up from camp today :) he had 4 hours of "Night out" :) we spent it fairly good.

Army took him away from me AGAIN though :( PLEASE JORDAN'S INSTRUCTOR, DON'T GIVE HIM EXTRA ):

2011-05-19T00:28:00.002+08:00

I've been wandering around the house all night,

wondering what the hell to do.

Yeah, I'm trying to concentrate, but all I can think of is you.

Well the phone don't ring 'cause my friends ain't home,

I'm tired of being all alone.

Got the tv on 'cause the radio's playing

songs that remind me of you.

Baby when you're gone, I realize I'm in love.

Days go on and on, and the nights just seem so long.

Even food don't taste that good, drink ain't doing what it should.

Things just feel so wrong, baby when you're gone.

I keep driving up and down these streets,

trying to find somewhere to go.

Yeah I'm looking for a familiar face,

but there's no one I know.

Oh, this is torture, this is pain,

it feels like I'm gonna go insane.

I hope you're coming back real soon,

'cause I don't know what to do.

Baby when you're gone, I realize I'm in love.

Days go on and on, and the nights just seem so long.

Even food don't taste that good, drink ain't doing what it should.

Things just feel so wrong, baby when you're gone.

I love you, Jordan :):):):)

2011-05-18T02:51:00.001+08:00

J♥rdan

2011-05-18T02:48:00.002+08:00

He may have his flaws, but I love him all the same.
The amount of love I have for him does not fluctuate.

Jordan Goh Yong Chun is the Best I Ever Had.

Disappointment

2011-05-17T21:40:00.002+08:00

Neglected this blog for a while till I saw his, I just had to post something up.

So now I'm living the dream however, he picked up smoking and it feels somewhat like a catastrophe.

Disappointed. I really am. I care but it's not up to me ultimately.

I've grown too numb to all this acts of disappointment. It either gets better or worse. We're not even 1:Eternity of the way there yet.

Ciao.

2011-03-04T13:34:00.001+08:00

When is he gna reply me :( this sucks, I hate waiting!

Gna play L4D2 while waiting for Shuyi to come!

2011-03-03T10:39:00.001+08:00

Just watched, Tangled. Moved me to tears :(

Sigh, all 3 of them have moved on. This sucks, for me.

2011-03-01T07:20:00.003+08:00

Was soooooooooooo bored, I decided to purchase Left 4 Dead 2 via Steam! :)

It's now mine, BUT GUESS WHAT?

Downloading the game takes 8 hours and 13 minutes...........................................................

And I thought the game could help me kill time, see the irony?

2011-03-01T05:01:00.002+08:00

Just watched "Mean Girls" for the umpteenth time, and from what I've learnt, "Mean Girls 2" has already been shown! Downloading it right this moment :)

Oh my, this guy that I recently met is so alluring. Something about him entices me......... mmm.... Nothing is happening though :( it's really so sad. Deciding if I should sleep after this.......... such a touch decision to make sigh :(

"That's why her hair is so big, it's full of secrets." - The Mean Girls

Boomerang

2011-02-27T10:53:00.003+08:00

I'm starting to think that I actually am a truly happy person. Well, minus you, I would actually have no problems. Unless I choose to find one then I would be a typical teenage girl.

Happy me is back FOR GOOD :) this better last, or else..................

Nothing bad's gna happen. As the saying goes "Once bitten, twice shy."

Adios amigos ♥

6:40am

2010-05-22T06:40:00.002+08:00

So maybe I should start posting up here once again.

I only woke up at 7:20pm yesterday, and omg it's only the 11th hour since I've been up. I have too much energy to hit the sack and it's 6:40am now. Someone has got to be around me :(

2010-05-03T05:39:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry I'm nothing like her. We've been through thick&thin, and we should be tight, but since you metaphorically prefer the thin to thick, I don't think I want to try anymore.

Leave me out, continue doing that. I don't want to feel anything anymore.

Really. I have, had enough.

SOLO

2010-05-03T05:22:00.002+08:00

Starting to feel disgust, where you 3 are concerned. I can barely keep my eyes on all of you for just 4 seconds.

(I need a barf bag)
Oh God.

We were never close. I never was. Some great bull it was.

I'm better off alone without you 3.

I'm riding solo.

P.S: I hope you all get into big shit & suffer.

HIGH

2009-12-09T01:02:00.000+08:00

PULAU UBIN TMRW BAII

Goodbye shithead.

2009-11-24T20:01:00.004+08:00

Long time, since I've been here. Just did this poll for a friend, one of the questions was "Are you happier at the start of this year or happier at year end now?", which got me trying to recall whatever happened at the start, and apparently I can't remember no shit.

Omggggggg I kinda wish I had more money, then I can have much more fun than I'm having now :) hehe. Wherever, whenever, with WHOEVER I want. HELL YEA! Buttttttt, it'll all just be wishful thinking :( shittttt, I miss starbucks with those people I used to go with. Sigh.

Vannnnnn: AaaaAaaaaaaAh
Rachhhhh: OoooOooooOoohhh

hahahhahahahhaa

Old times. Can't wait to leave this fuckn hell hole for M'sia. 1 more day. YES.

2009-10-15T01:57:00.001+08:00

2009-09-16T17:27:00.002+08:00

"i love you also means i love you more than anyone loves you, or has loved you, or will love you, and also, i love you in a way that no one loves you, or has loved you, or will love you, and also, i love you in a way that i love no one else, and never have loved anyone else, and never will love anyone else."

Ok I got this from FLB & this is exactly how I feel. You'll never understand. And all th time before I sleep, I lay in bed, and think about what we once shared.

1. Th spooky shitz, th time when we just sat together on my bed watching ghost vids, and one just popped out at us and I shrieked and teared, you wiped away my tears for me... :)

2. Our first few shy kisses(haha). You were shy but just took initiative th whole time, dived in but I backed away quick! hahaha. Finally lost to you coz you cornered my head while we were sitting down..... :) oh damnnnnnnn.

3. Th first time you stayed over at my house, but had to sleep in separate rooms coz of conservative parentz. Hahahaha. Once they left for work&shut th heavy front door, I just went over to your room and jumped into your arms. But we went back to my coldcold room to sleep&snuggle in bed together :)

4. This day I woke up to numerous annoying callz on my hp and simply ignored them thinking that they'd stop. But they didn't. You called me 30+ times on my hp&house phone to get me to wake up with a few text msgs too. Turns out you were at my doorstep @ 7.10am to surprise me&too to make up for sth (; that was so sweettttttt.

5. You wanted me to change my fb name to Rachel Broke Bells to show our relationship. Hahaha. That was cool.

6. Our first date to OCH. We went there on a long bus ride as 2 friends-almost-lovers people, came back already lying on each other's shoulder/head on th ride :) so nice. Remember th gay dude we met @ cheers?

7. Remember th BBP? One song played everytime we talked? Our "little secret"? And kiss me thru th phone? Haha. All etched into my mind k. There are so much more, but these few are what's most memorable to me.

Maybe I'll update on those. I wna keep a list of what I rmb. And it's not that I have to, but it's more of a "Want" to thing. I want to keep it as a memory. And I'm not a dumbfoolishfuck for doing it k.

If need be.

2009-09-15T17:11:00.002+08:00

I got so used to him not replying, texting, calling or rather just conversing with me that now I don't even have a clue on how to reply. How?

Left school early ytd, it bore me, I was tired&I did have a headache. A fucky one at that. I couldn't get myself to go to school today either. All I can think about is you, awfully true. Fuckthisshit srsly. Like you give a damn. -.-

Ciao.

2009-09-14T05:23:00.003+08:00

HI ALL. K, it's 5:25am and I have been awake all nighttttttttt. That's not good at all. Nope, it isn't. School's in 2 hours and I don't feel happy :/ Hope school helps me get my life back on track, since I can't do so. Ciao.

Good morning!

2009-09-13T05:06:00.003+08:00

5:08am and I'm still up&not one bit tired :/ seeeeeeeeeee, Rachel so screwed nowz :( sleep in th morning and wake up around evening? Not even my usual 12 hours of lazy sleep! Ra.

And I know many people who are dreading th arrival of sept 24th, but not me! :) :) I'M GNA GET MY FUCKN DESERVED 400 DAWLUHZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ YAYAY^^ oh goshhhhhhh i cannot waitwaitwait! hehehehe.

Oh and those of you who knows about my plan of celebrating my sweet 16? I tmay be changed, like th venue or wtv, COZ I JUST WNA SPEND MY MONEY ON OTHER STUFFZ <: hehehehehehhee. Thinking about it just make me soooooo elated {: SRSLY.CANT.WAIT.

Oops, I did it again.

2009-09-12T02:36:00.003+08:00

Alright so, I did it once again. But today was pretty nice I'd say <: met Balqis&Serene @ cine & we watched I Love You Beth Cooper & Coco Before Chanel. I LOVE FRENCH. hehe. okkkk. So after everything we walked around & all ended up at F.E.P, I think at 9? Yeah, they helped me forget "someone".

They had to leave but th night was still young for me so I called Vc out {: she accompanied me! And it was mighty awesome coz I met new people & they tried to teach me how to fuck "someone" off, and other stuffz too. Haha it was fun! Chilled till 11+ .

Met Kenneth& a new guy, Lavis and we chilled for awhile. Ahaha this 2 guys are fucking funny, they made me laugh and all, also helped me try to forget "someone" {: nize ppl are like dat c? <: Left at 1+ and this 2 sweeties sent me home :) :) :) THANK YOU! hehehehe. fucking nice people we have these days.

Btw, today I saw like 3 calafares, 2 "popular" girls, met up with "old" friends and met new friends! <: today is a good day y'allllllllllllllllllllllll!

2009-09-11T03:25:00.000+08:00

Maybe I should get a LJ like everyone says. We'll see.

fuckthisshit_l_

2009-09-11T02:42:00.006+08:00

It's been awhile. And for awhile, things have changed.

He broke me, We broke up, I broke down & I broke my biggest promise ever. :/

It's just one of those days where you can't take anymore shit&gotta let loose you know? Anyway, for those who know me, I'll lose my focus&will to study or concentrate on anything when sth fucked up fucks me up, this really takes great effect on me especially when testz are round th corner.

Well, this is who I am, I'm still trying my best to spin myself right back around before I regret once again. This really hurts me. It sucks enough to see others feel th way I do(J), sucks hardcore when it happens to me. Even worse knowing who does it to me. Ha, fuckthisshit.

P.S: So what if it hurts you? It's fucking killing me.

2009-08-30T00:20:00.006+08:00

(I WAS HOLDING ONTO A CLIP WITH MY LIPS)

FLEAAAAAAAAAA HEEHEEHEE. Omg. I find happiness in splurging at fleas^^ buying fuckn awesome stuffzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz yayayayayay. Wanted to buy shirts for you babe but they were all exxxxxx :/ soz.

Oh god, I saved money too! :) hehehehehe super happy. I'm looking forward to th next splurgeflea:) wheeeeee! haha. BTW. Some people know that I've got a list of fancyful shitz that I want to get, and after today, I cancelled 3 of my list. ISN'T THAT GREAT? :D

Ok anyway, I got like 4 blisters again, boo me. And met up with couz at night, love them as much as I love van, xh, dor^^

Waiting for someone's call, don't think it's coming so, g'nighttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.

Big Lesson. You, liar. I, naive.

2009-08-22T23:52:00.004+08:00

1st, 2nd, 3rd.

Days go by slowly, it sucks, whatmore th process is horrible. What's happening is utter bull. I've never thought that we'd end up like this, never. You aren't thinking right at all! Or else, you won't be like that, no one ever will. Ugh, wtf.

Anyway, in this past month, I've learnt a lot about you. Even though we've not met for 3 weeks(which apparantly, doesn't bother you a bit). Ha. 3 weeks, still able to celebrate our "being together"? It's close to a month. Might as well not.

I've been feeling rather tired and worn out lately, I don't know why. I've been crying, yes I have and headaches are killing meeeee. :/ fuck, I don't want this to happen again, it's either it gets settled or......... WHATEVER.

400 bucks for free is good enough for me right now. Ciao.

2009-08-18T00:18:00.008+08:00

Saturday, Sunday & Monday has been day out & The Cathay. Movies+Food+Girls+Awesomeness! :) hahahhaa. G.I.Joe was great. Orphan SUCKED. Sucked ballz. I swear I swear lolol :/ I wna watch "here Got Ghost?" can we faster watch it vannnnnnn : and we took so many pictures on sunday, I can't even remember when was th last time I had so much fun doing so! :)

Really wanna go out with all of them again! Especially with Serene, Balqis&Lydia around! :)
drinkdrinkdrink after eoys:)

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Anyway, this post is specially for this 3 bitches^^ honestly, after everything that we've gone through this year, studies, shitz and all, they're th ones who have really kept me sane all this while, and smiling every single time. They listen, they give advice. ESPECIALLY GOOD HUGS! :) HAHAHA. We've never talked to one another much before, but I guess retaining has been a blessing in disguise, to our studies & this friendship. I really do love them!

Xh for her low IQ(HAHA KIDDING), her childishness & happy-go-lucky attitude. Dorisa for her r'ship advices and hugzz. Van for just clowning around and smacking reality back into my face everytime I drift fucking far away & HER FUCKING IMBA HP CAMERA (Y). You bitchz are truly number one, sibei AI ZAI k. HAHAHAHA. Don't feel like ponning school as much anymorez hehehehe.

See y'all tmrwwwwwww, ciaooooooooo :)

Have me at gunpoint.

2009-08-13T23:26:00.003+08:00

Wore my oxford heels to tuition today^^ happyness heh. But soon, I developed a huge blister whilst gg to cwp to get a cake for daddy. Ouchouchouch. I had to beg them for th cake coz it's daddy's birthday and I really wanted one but had not enough cash :( she gave in! :) THANK YOU LADY(even though you said no for like th first 5 mins), she was real nice about it, th other staffs too, they couldn't agree at first coz it was a fixed price, so thank God! :) hahhaa.

I feel fuckyky. I want to hug you bad. Yes you, no one else. :ooooooooooooooooooo

Ears blocked.

2009-08-12T16:17:00.002+08:00

SOSOSOSO HAPPY FOR TESTZ TODAYYY ^^ HAHHAHAA. HOPE I GET A FOR MATH :)

Too can't wait for saturday! :) Going out with X,V,D :) let's just go crazy after tmrw's papers la kkkkkkkkkkkkk. ahhahahahaha.

Long gone.

2009-08-08T22:24:00.005+08:00

Had a first ever study session with S&L today! :) not bad, finished studying SS. I'm lost for lit. Idk how to start!!!!! Omgggggggggg how :/ I can only afford to fail geog&chi. Rahhhhhhh. Ok, I generally feel fine these past few days :) surprisingly, hahhahahaa. AH having tuition overload again. Have no time for nothing rah.

Right now, I only have one person in mind. Omggggggggggggggggggggggggg lol. Izzit a hint?? :/

I wna flea. Ok no. I wna shop, rather. :) :) :) can't wait. Random time, my fingers got burnt ytd :( pain laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Rah.

And oh! This is my twittascope for today :
There could be something weird going on today with respect to an existing relationship or a sudden attraction to a new one. Either way, it's helpful for you to remove your rose-colored glasses prior to what happens, and not after it. It's crucial now for you to see things as they are and not how you want them to be.

Hi. Damnsianxz. Studying again tmrw. I wonder if not seeing me bothers you or not. Face th fact, your friends ARE more impt to you, so you told a lie from th start. I'm such a fool just believing you. Can't believe myself. Anyway, I'm not gna say anything to you anyway. Simply can't be bothered.

OH YES. I WALKED HOME TODAY.
HAPPILY.
HHAHAAHAHHAH :)

Goodbye my hopeless dream.

2009-07-30T22:40:00.002+08:00

12 hours of sleep last night ^^ teehee so happy hahahahahah. Nothing makes me happier than long hours of sleep. I think th shot cut to my satisfaction is death! Th truthhhhhhhhhhh.

Had oral today, only classmates and mummy asked me how was it :( why no one care about me one huhuh. lolol jkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk :) godddddd I really am hopeful. Hope I can pass k, Mrs Jacob was like -.- at first but she was like :) at th end, so I *TWIST MY FINGERS* hope for th best!

This week is just SO PACKED. Ugh, I hardly have time for anything, and when I manage to make time for people and things, it all fails -.- really ah. I shouldn't anymore until it's like 100%-guarantee-plus-chop confirmed.

SUNDAY IS ONCE AGAIN, TH FLEA MARKET THINGY WHERE I'LL BE HAVING A STALL WITH VC&VAN SO ALL MUST GO K. REMINDERREMINDERLIKEEVERYDAYK:B

&&&&&&&cant wait for this saturday&next!! COZCOZ this saturday gg out with B&L&S & we gg to walkwalkwalk to many places, check out stuffz. Then next saturday is action time :):) you'll see me with extra sth, or less of sth? Heh, we so happyyyy :)

HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY

:) POA was th bombz. Really. We got so bored, we only thought of ditching th class for library. Hahahahha, we did it. Or rather, Serene did it.

Serene : Teacher, can we go to the library?
Teacher(about there): Yeah, sure, just go. No point in staying here if you're going to fidget and not learn. Distracting the class and distracting me. So if you want to go, just go to the library.
(Some of us discussdiscuss then...)

12 stood up and left. Really half of th class left, after excluding th absentees and non-POA students. H.i.l.a.r.i.o.u.s.I.S.w.e.a.r.

THAT'S ALL FOLKS HEE :)

2009-07-29T16:02:00.003+08:00

Alrightyyyyyyyy. People! All must come to th flea market held for th FIRST TIME @ St. James this Sunday ok!! It's from 12pm-4pm so y'all better show your faces ah! hahahahhaha. COME LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. K?! :B

Ima be there with vc&van& other people's stuffz, so pleezplz support k? :) NINI YOU BETTER GO HEH. Anyhooza, just got done with tuition.

Rah kill me now got so many tuition I stress want die and dont feel like using comma cause this is how my life is on and on and then it gets boring and hard to understand(read in this case).

Okkkkkk I cant wait for SATURDAY, gg out with B,L,S :) whee ^^ omg and aug 8 too! Im gna get it baby. \m/ cantwaitcantwait. k nao i wann l4dddddd :8) HAHAHAHA HIPPO FACE.

lolllllllllllllllllllllllllllll ^^

P.S: omg have been seeing my ex-crushes this 2 weeks, I so knew that I was gna see N this week, and I did, TODAY. Who's next man, A hasn't surfaced since 5 months ago. Or is it K? I alrdy saw T's name in a L4D server&trust me his nick isnt common. Hmm, I got to find out who G is, last week.. met up with M, saw JJJJJ :):):), has been 3 years oh god. Havent seen S since idkwhen lol. Another, H, he's like faraway. Or J? He's attached! :) happy for you asshole. Or J? My first ever lolol..................................................... seems like alot right rofl, but noooooooooo, it's not hehe, took place over th last three years kkkk. Mutual love between us friendzzz. that's all :)

2009-07-26T23:05:00.003+08:00

See, my smile so fake alrdy :(

"I saw your face, in a crowded place, and I don't know what to do...
Guess I'll never be with you."

Sighhhhhhh

2009-07-26T14:32:00.003+08:00

He makes an effort to spend time with you

"If you enjoy being in someone's company, you will naturally want to spend more time with that person"
...
"If he doesn't, do ask yourself why would he even be asking you to go into any sort of a mutually exclusive relationship."

Why don't you answer this question for me?

Anywayzzzzzzzz, I'm gg out nowwwwww ^^ I want to hug my baobeiixzxzxzxzxz LOL.

2009-07-25T23:40:00.003+08:00

Brushing all my thoughts away, slowly. Changes will be made. Slowly reverting back to my old life, if you know what I mean. Anyway, I'm really not gna give a shit to people/things that bring me down nowadays. I'm gna be happy again! Ok, I hope I do.. :/

L4D-ed for 3 hours ytd wth van, met cass and we caught Harry Potter, it really isn't boring really. Met Mario at night, has been long since we last met. Funny how people dont change, hahha.

Flea with van today again, had no mood really but I managed to get 2 awesome tops :) hoho can't wait for aug 2nd's! I'm really gna start living my life, my way now.

P.S: Sorry, I've tried. We're not gna be as close anymore, but I'm learning to accept th fact.

I want to make things right, it's up to you if you want to now, really.

2009-07-22T13:17:00.004+08:00

Stumbled upon this while blog-hopping, take a look!

“ Wait for the person who pursues you, the one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical, the kind of person who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person ; wait for the person who will be your best friend, the only person who will drop everything to be with you at any time no matter what the circumstances, for the person who makes you smile like no one else
and when they smile you know they need you. Wait for the person who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats and a tee shirt, but appreciates it when you get dressed up for them. And most of all, wait for the person who will put you up at the center of their universe, because that’s where you belong."

I'm off to tuition now! BYE.

confucius

2009-07-21T21:30:00.003+08:00

Idk how am I supposed to confess to my mummy that I lost one side of my contact lens :( I'm so afraid that she'll scold me. It'll cost me 110 bucks to replace one ok!! ShemurderIscream lolol. Coz of my current temp lens, my eyes are slowly swelling up, like last time! Ugh, I don't want eye infectionz :( howhowhow?

I've got so many things on my mind right now, and definitely many things to say to match it up. I can't find th right words though... However, I feel that I'm not being me. I want to say what I like, and at that, say what I feel is right. I'm trying to make things work, can't you tell? Don't know if it applies to you as well but whatever, srsly.

Meeting once a week? Hello? Anyone who is experiencing this as well?? Please tell me. I bet no one does though. I dont like it, I hate it. Really. Not like you're schooling or working or anything, you're practically doing nothing, so I don't see a reason why we can't meet. Anyway, I don't want to be called naggy or get scolded again, so I'll just shut up.

Srsly, any other girl being treated like that as well?
Unfair.

Anyhoo, I'm not gg to school tmrw! ^^ yayayay friday too, hahahahahhahahaa. CANT WAIT FOR WHAT'S TAKING PLACE ON FRIDAY :) :)

2009-07-18T00:40:00.003+08:00

Bummed that I didn't get to watch Harry Potter as planned, but Obsessed turned out alright! :) Ali is one hot, good actress & Beyonce is one hot, good fighting bitch! Y'all should totally go catch it, it's not too bad. But halfway through th show, I just wanted to walk out. There's sth about these kinda "affair" shows thingy that makes me unable to sit still. Hate it.

Anyway, th day started out horribly, but throughout it all, it flowed smoothly and quickly like th blood of a second-day menses. Ok ewwwwww :/ cant believe I just said that, but it's so true! :B hahhahahhaha. People just kept making me giggle and laugh today. IDK WHY. BUT I LOVE IT.

I want happiness. I want to be happy again! Please oh please make me happy someone, anyone!

Random stuff, but I want to be proposed to atop th Eiffel Tower with a sentence that goes like this "Je t'aime, veux-tu m'epouser?" :) :) :) oh god oh god oh god.

I love dreaming but pleaseplease make it real!

2009-07-14T23:08:00.002+08:00

Really really suffering :( :( saw a doctor earlier on, again, and th doctor gave me another 2 days of mc. I pray I really do get better :( I need a miracle, actually no, I just need rest.

J'ai besoin d'aide.

2009-07-14T10:46:00.002+08:00

15 minutes since I've came home from school. Sickkkkkkkk. I can't stand it! My throat hurts like mad & I keep coughing. Now, I have flu. Best. Just give me H1N1 alrdy :/

I can't finish my food and I'm reallyreally tired. Couldn't sleep properly last night. And this is th first time that I attended school for 1+ hours :o I need to shit now, byeeeeeee :(

Sad thing.

2009-07-13T01:57:00.002+08:00

Without knowing, something happy becomes something sad.
People start to die.
Friends, close ones too, start to disappear.
Loved ones, perish.
Soon it turns into a game, everyone for themselves.
Everyone stuck in this game, Game of Betrayal & Survival.

Friends kill each other, they lose control.
You become skeptical, so do I.
Trust, is that even a word now?
Weapons on the table, defense or attack?
Slowly, the number decreases and you're all alone.
What do you do?

Die.

2009-07-12T12:36:00.001+08:00

This put a smile to my sick face. Ahhh, my throat hurts alot :(

2009-07-11T23:12:00.003+08:00

Ok, I don't know how many of you have alrdy figured out th meaning of th song "If U Seek Amy" by Britney, but I just did. Turns out there's a meaning to th song. And Ima help those who don't know, decipher it.

So, she's really saying F U C K me. F(If), U (You), C (See-), K (k-A)-ME(my)

Love me hate me say what you want about me
All of the boys and all of the girls are beggin’ to F.U.C.K.ME
Love me hate me but can't you see what I see
All of the boys and all of the girls are beggin' to F.U.C.K.ME

GEDDITGEDDIT? Thought this song only not made sense to me. But now it does hahahaha. Anyway, I am down with th fever. It got up as high as to 41.2. Scaryscary. Went to th hospital ytd night. I don't have H1N1. :/ impossibleeeeee.

Love came over ytd to take care of me :) thank you baby. If no one took care of me ytd, I bet I'd have died. Coz mummy and daddy left me to die at home. And I was suffering, MISERABLE. :(

I need to go out soon, for coffee or sth. Not right now, I can't taste nor eat shitz. Sigh.

2009-07-09T21:44:00.002+08:00

I hope I get into a hospital so he can visit me. hehehaha. I bet if he knows I'm sick, he'll visit! :) sighhhhhhhhhhhh :/

Anyway, th clinic I went to wasnt a surgical clinic or whatever, they cant check if I've that, so, I'll just live like that for now :)

On th plus side, I've got a mc! Teachers tmrw, eat my shitttttttttt :) ahhahahahahhaa. I can stay home, hopefully he comes. Or else. Ha.

21 guns, this song makes me think of -----. (Y)

2009-07-09T16:16:00.002+08:00

I feel so sick now :( it started off with me just being super lethargic, tired, shaggy and all. And then I th headache came. Th SUPERSUPERBAD headache. My head felt so heavy, as if I store gold bars in my skull. Had problems walking at my normal speed, couldnt cough(I have cough) & I have a sore throat. NEITHER COULD I LAUGH :( rah.

Now, I have muscle aches & fever of temperature, 39.1°C.

I FEEL HORRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What if I get H1N1? oo, hospital! ^^ hahahahhahhaha. Stupid I know. Sigh, hope I get a MC.

Doctor pleezzzzzzzzzz? You look like a picture today! :B

2009-07-08T22:15:00.002+08:00

So, so sad. Sigh. Emotions overload. :(

2009-07-08T16:55:00.002+08:00

(I do swear that I'll always be there.
I'd give anything and everything and I will always care.
Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better, for worse,
I will love you with every beat of my heart.)

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

I LOVE YOU SASI :)

♥♥♥♥♥

lanoitomE

2009-07-06T21:17:00.004+08:00

I have a sprained leg :( it's so so pain. I dont even know how it happened. &&& I've got th menses on heavy flow mode :( :( Anyway, I just came back from "thinking" session, an hour or more. It's happening again, I want it to go away. Sigh, why I so emo. I really need someone who can stand, understand, (know how to)cheer me up. Better still, rush over just coz I'm sad so we can snog and all :)

Wishful thinking. Life's a bitch.

Katy Perry - Thinking Of You. When I broke up with my ex and met this other guy, T, I could so relate to that song. Now when I think back, I feel very sad. He was very nice to me, treated me good and all. Too good, I took him for granted, too much niceness. Hurt him did I. Regret, but it's good, I'm learning to appreciate my love now. I know I will. But I need to do something right now.

T, I know you wont see this, but I need to hug you at least, my apologies. Really hope we stay friends forever.

Omggggggg, I srsly cant stand myself, I need someone who can. Oh and I'm gg to ask all my nearby friends out alrdy IDC, school friends all live purple line, so farrrrrr. Vc simei, further -.- M, K, B, K WHEN CAN Y'ALL GO OUT, v long never meet alrdyyyyyyyyyyyyy. hahahahahahaha gg out with 2 of them this week though :) ok happy alrdy.

I need to go to france, pronto.

2009-07-06T12:20:00.000+08:00

Beyonce ftw, always. Tribute to MJ.

2009-07-06T01:54:00.002+08:00

Went out with baby today :) my mood was relatively good throughout! ahahhaha. I just kept smiling th whole time, mostly coz I got to see him and all. And I was supposed to go for th event with van but I lost my mood for that and I'M SO SORRY VAN. Really, truly am sorry ok. I owe you one! :(

My period played a part. 2nd day somemore. Best righttttttttt :/ and I even wore my I ♥ MJ tank today all prepped for th event. Rah. Suckz ballz.

Anyhoo, I enjoyed today even though it was 3 hours(?), it was fun :) hope you'll come by tmrw love, miss you!

2009-07-04T15:36:00.005+08:00

OMG I AM SO SO HAPPY! I FEEL LIKE I CAN KEEP BOUNCING ALL MY LIFEEEEEEE ^^

I just went on a no-expense "shopping trip" :) to my mummy's closet that is. All her clothing from young, oh god, they aren't tacky at all! They are super chio!! ahahahahaha and I picked up 6 handbags, vintage super chio shoes, an authentic LV wallet & PRADA handbag. I'm th happiest girl in th whole wide world right now, I definitely am.

& I'm not even done "shopping" >:)

I feel so happy today! Oh, and th shopping trip isn't th only thing that made me happy. Well, I was on my way to popular @ cwp to pick up a book with mummy. And omg guess what. I met Russell Lee! :) YAY. hahahahaha ok I may sound silly and all, but hey, I like his books(even though th stories are made up) & he is mysterious, which makes it all better :)

I got an autograph and he said I look COOL k! HAHAHHAHAA. WUV HIM ^^ and I took a picture with him!!

Ok, I looked hideous coz I was surrounded by people & was like naturally nervous coz I MET HIM. & I totally forgot how to smile. And yes, I was in home clothes. How was I to know! :/

Cool kkkkkkkkkkkkkthnxbai.

Time to start resting

2009-07-03T22:27:00.002+08:00

So it's th start of th weekend now. TGIF :) iamsosleepdeprived. I have taken three after-school days just t catch up on my lack of sleep! THREE DAYS. And it's not enough. Nono.

Damn, I've been really messed up in my head these past few days. Sigh, I don't know why either. Feeling rather apathetic but very vexed at th same time. Whywhywhy :( I want t be happy again. Like, really REALLY happy man. Just laughing all th time, and this happy period only happened once(as far as I can recall) which was i think, only from th second week of may to third week of june?

Sigh. All good things will def come to an end, like they say. lanjiaoz :/ hahhahaa (lol im laughing at my choice of shit words). I want t get it ALL back. Nownownow, I so expected all this shitz. But, ilystill. :)

P.S: Can't wait to win money from th 3 events. Hohoho. Money come to meeeee. Rofl, money hungry me C:

2009-07-01T22:09:00.002+08:00

My hp's being a bitch again!!! Like this is th second time it's doing this t me. Ugh. So pissed. There is no connection within th phoneline and company or sth!! Rah. I was just about t send a text t my tuition teacher and baby! >:( and idk how long it's gg t take t clear this shit! Stupid shitz.

Anyway, about today, everyone knows about it, and a small thing shook th whole school up. Damn, actually I feel that PL girls arent that heartless afterall! Everyone's feeling it, and I guess it's a good thing right? But oh well, too many shocks this week alrdy. MJ's thing still gg on and everything. Sigh, why make it worse God? :/

I prayed twice today, better than other days(hey i'm not christian&i'm not really into praying, but I do once in awhile) and I prayed for quite alot of people. And I really hope that we all can see th rainbow and sunshine, after th rain. :) smile k! Dont be gloomy :)

OK. Enough about unhappy stuff. I lost 4 kg man! Whoaaaaaa, I cant believe it I swear and hahahahhahaa im damn happy about it ^^ and no i'm not gg on a diet or anything. Counted th number of school days left and came up with 92. 3 months? And exactly 30 school days t th next exam :/ cant wait to graduate man. I wna get out of this shithole, and I mean PL. Really.

Saw Mario today, hahahhaha looks so different! It's funny how people can change in many ways in a couple of days/weeks etc. That's one thing that makes life interesting!

Ugh, phone still having concussion, damn annoyeddddddddddddd.

I want you back.

2009-06-29T02:59:00.002+08:00

Doing tkam now. Can someone just do it for me? I'll pay you. REALLY.
:(

Rachel damn sad k, got tkam and math, hafta worry about ms kok staring me down and blasting my eardrums :( scaredscareddddd.

I've got 7 friends online on fb and none of them are my classmates. Sigh. Why do I even bother about my end year grades really. Ok, it's coz I don't wna retain anymore! And I won't! With hisherhisherhishishisherhisherherhis encouragement, I won't disappoint.

Oh! And my mummy and I made an agreement(with a lil of my tuition teacher's help). She'll reward me with diff amounts for each grade I get A1 - C5. Incentives ^^ hahhahaha. Trust me, amount is quite alot. Like, 200 for A1? HELLO I LOVE MY MUMMY. So, I have t fucking work hard then can buy manymany stuffs for baby&I :)

Ok, luckily, this is real and I won't be able t go "Ok, Rachel stop dreaming and focus on your work now!" but I can say "Rachel, think more, study more, then money more!" :B teehee.

Hahahhahahaa, shit lah me. Anyway, waking up earlier t meet Adelia&Sarah t finish up hmwk in class. Sigh. Things guai people(me) do t avoid getting a scolding, which could lead t a fucky day.
Awesome! Bye!!

No more calls from you anymore.

2009-06-28T19:39:00.005+08:00

I just woke up from a nap(don't norm take one) but yes, I feel so energized! :) my mummy bought me some book from th expo, th title's stupid ok. Don't even think it'll even help!

Looking through term 3's timetable nowwwwww. (hold on, looking)

AND WTHECK. 2 periods for each sub for th whole entire day on monday!! ugh. So gna pon mondays this time :/ oh god, there's lit, english, bio & math tmrw. Shit, I haven't even done any of those hmwks! Ms Kok's gna kill me. I dont even know where's my math hmwk! And there's 2 sets of it! Knnbccb.

Suddenly I'm reminded of him, always asking me t calm down & relax and he'll help me through it. No not andrew. Sigh. Should I skip school tmrw? Hmm..

I've been thinking, since sg is so small. And there's alrdy 400++ people infected with th H1N1, why arent anyone around me infected? So weird. None of my teachers are, neither are my friends nor family. Well, I dont mean that I want any of them t get it. But still, it's weird that any of us dont. Weeeeeird! :o

PROCRASTINATION.

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Ok. I'm done with th stupid Dracula compre that was due last term. :/ I'm only focused on finding my math now. I dont want t be murdered my ms kok :( howhow.

Heh, I'm damn happy now, I'm like drinking bubbletea, ALL TIME FAV. Like, it makes me much happier, it relieves my stress! :) hohoho. It makes no sense but whtev ^^ Harper's Island on soon! Or izzit now? I'm addicted t it. & I totally belittled th game pixel ranger on fb.

Gna be random now but, I love th stuff I bought from th flea! Cant wait t wear them, few full outfits, literally :D okay, gna go watch HI now, bai.

Oh! I was supposed t use someone's bag for school, but that someone hasn't passed it t me. Damnnnnnnn idw use mine :( rah

2009-06-28T15:28:00.002+08:00

So.. you just got home, texted, said sorry. So what? You went t bathe. Didnt even call. Prolly 'want' t, thought of it. But 'cant'. Maybe you're sleeping now. Too tired, blahblah. Mom's home. Or you're prolly downstairs slacking with friends again.

Excuses, excuses. Yawn, so boring. So cliché.

Rah. I've got tons of hmwk. And truth is, I reallyyyyyyy cbb about them. Srsly. Just bring on th tests and classes. I need no hmwk. Shit, hmwk for what? Makes no sense, t me at least.

2009-06-28T14:52:00.003+08:00

"You shouldn't be angry over this"
"It's not worth getting angry over"
"You have no need to get angry"
"Why are you making such a big fuss out of it?"
"It's not that"
"Sorry"

I'm not who you want me t be & I hope you remember that.
I'll never be her.

Stupid

2009-06-28T13:39:00.001+08:00

You broke my heart.
But I still love you.
Why.

fuck time.

2009-06-28T03:35:00.000+08:00

No more flea :( staying home t study. rah.

And when I cry, would you know?

2009-06-28T03:12:00.006+08:00

Maybe I've played my game wrong. Made th wrong move. Coz I'm not feeling it anymore.
No I'm not.

Found this.
"Home again.I really hope i've heard you.Knowing the great distance we stay apart, you feel all lonely without me.You know what? I feel the same way too! Its not like i would not wish to think about you either.I constantly remind myself to message you whenever i could,cause in my life, not every day is messaging day or talking day.I'd wish to see you everyday if i could & let you know that i care for you!Iam happy enough that i got to see you today! IWANTMYDRUGEVERYDAY!"

Makes me think. You understood how she felt, knew what t do, and you shared th same feeling that I'm feeling now. And seeing how much you loved her(expressed through words) even though she treated you like shit(from what you said) makes me feel like I'm her shit. Nothing t you.

She was lonely, without you. Made th effort t at least text her. Even wanted her by your side everyday.

Doesnt it sound familiar? Guess you wouldnt understand either. Coz it's different. Liking me without a reason. I've told friends about it, they say it's impossible. Well prolly possible in your case. Maybe you werent even sure from th start. Getting together with me coz you couldnt get J? I'm just guessing. Liking me without a reason. It just means it's all pointless. We're different. Truly are. Don't think we'll ever fit into a perfect picture in th future. We dont understand each other. For example, you'd prolly be thinking now "fuck! this naggy woman think so much again! cb, for what fuck sia". And I dont understand you fully now, trying but slowly dying. Not giving up yet, at least i think. Idk. You knew how much I wanted t see you before school starts, spend time alone with you. What do I get? Nothing. I dont think you'll ever be that guy who cares for me or th one who's there for me at th end of th day, listening t my cries and woes and showering me with love and attention or whateverfuck. Coz you'll always be sleeping when I'm awake and vice versa. Or, you wont call until I call. Hardly text now, idkwtfwhy as well. I wait patiently, out of my own will, for you t come home everyday, for your call. And these few days, not even a simple text. I have t initiate it. And apparently, you're busy with your own shit t even reply me. Zilch. And what are you doing now, drinking. Am I in your heart? Strongly doubt so.

K enough said, there's much more, but I'll keep it to myself. I'm totally contemplating now. Really dont wish t talk/see you right now(I'm too upset) even though I really want t. So. Schools starting next week. And I'll be busy with tuitions all week. So, I'll see you when I see you.

You're not th one for me

2009-06-27T23:52:00.005+08:00

Totally skipped sleeping last night, and went out early this morning. Flea-ed today! :) bought many shitz. Bought like 4 shirts for love and like dozens of stuffs for moi :D hahahahhaha. Happy! But my eyes got so fucking dry :/ coz I was just too tired. After th flea, vc and I met up with alph, reuben, khee&gf. It has been a v.long time since I last saw them :) totally miss them, but I was really just too tired t say much, and coz I was pissed too.

Gg t th flea tmrw again with vc&alph, not gna spend much though, already spent enough! :) and yesssss, right now I'm halfway of happy and angry. Ok, maybe not angry, just damn sad&disappointed.

Doesnt it remind you of th first incident? Promised. Broke it. High hopes, killed it. Sigh. I really hate people who break promises. Really do. No planning was done, neither was there any time management. Idk, idc, just fuck this shit.

I cry, I wont tell. Talk to you, I wont.

BET YOU'RE HAVING FUN NOW NOT EVEN THINKING/CARING ABOUT ME. Definitely are. Happy drinking, coz that's all you care about.
Fun.

2009-06-27T06:11:00.002+08:00

Found this: The Michael Jackson 911 Call

2009-06-27T00:54:00.001+08:00

One day in your life
You'll remember a place
Someone touching your face
You'll come back and you'll look around you

One day in your life
You'll remember the love you found here
You'll remember me somehow
Though you don't need me now
I will stay in your heart
And when things fall apart
You'll remember one day . . .

One day in your life
When you find that you're always waiting
For a love we used to share
Just call my name, and I'll be there

You'll remember me somehow
Though you don't need me now
I will stay in your heart
And when things fall apart
You'll remember one day . . .

One day in your life
When you find that you're always longing
For a love we used to share
Just call my name, and I'll be there

One day in your life

2009-06-27T00:25:00.003+08:00

Ok. So everyone knows about his death now(read this). Sad. Damn sad. & we all heard it in th morning when we were off t work. Totally ruined my day. I love MJ, we all love MJ. He touched th hearts of 3 generations. Our grandparents', parents' and ours. Incredible & Invincible too, like his song.

He was my childhood. Always have, always will. So goodbye, forever *sniff sniff* (lol, so drama), but yes, I bet I'm not th only one who's on th verge of tearing.

K, enough of that, I dont want my mood down. So, I just installed Windows Ex 8, but there's like not much difference in speed? :/ they should revamp th whole thing, make it cool! :) hahahahaha. My sleeping clock so wronggggggggg ;(

OH. I'll be at titans tmrw. Many people will! :) gna be spotting so many familiar faces, hope * will be there! Ok byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

P.S : I'm gna post one of his awesome songs. Th lyrics is definitely th icing on th cake. Pleez listen k :)

2009-06-25T21:25:00.002+08:00

Omg ok I told myself that I'd only take a short nap & wake up @ 12, but I refused t wake up then and only awoke @ 9. Shittttttttttttttt. Now I'm really not gna sleep tonight manz. :(

Eyes hurt :(

H166N137

2009-06-25T09:53:00.002+08:00

Havent been up this early since godknowswhen, or rather havent been skipping sleep since a longnong time :/ caught up with Johnny last night, updated each other. Then talked t Fuad on th phone for over an hour, and I must say that he has changed! Goodgood :) all th best man!

Didnt sleep for like th whole night, planning&hoping that I can get my body clock back t norm by sleeping early tonight! Had macs earlier on @ kallang, all I can say is awesomeeeeeeeeeee hahahhahaa. Have not eaten macs breakfast outside since earlier this month? But now I so full :(

OH. I got fever, shit. H1N1? Spread t everyone, hahahahahaa. But why dont they call it H2N2 or H166N137 or smth? Like chemistry, nice k! lollllllll. Cannot take it.Must.Nap.Now. Up at 12 again byeeeeee. :)

Nonsensical nonsense

2009-06-25T06:50:00.002+08:00

Enough beating around th bushes.
Enough lame excuses.
Enough bullshitting.

I dont need any of this k. Get t th point. & no I cbb t ask anymore.

i wuvwuv rod ^^

2009-06-25T04:57:00.007+08:00

Rod Stewart is classic baby! His songs are th shit & I'm in love with every, single one of them :) it's even so difficult t find this one particular song(my all-time fav!!) in youtube k. So, hafta search on imeem & guess what? There's only one search result for this song. But th sad thing is that it only gives viewers a 30 second preview on blogs.

And good enough, playlist plays th full song! :) happyhappy.

Baby, this song's for youuuuuuuuuuuu. ENJOYY hahahahahaha.

P.S: This song's on auto play so y'all are gna be hearing this thing till it's gone. Too bad. I love it hehehe. :)

2009-06-23T19:44:00.002+08:00

Happy today! :) well gg over t baby's house aint a bad idea.

1. Would have wasted my time sleeping in&late @ home.
2. Wouldnt have studied @ home.
3. Wouldnt have gotten t see him if I stayed home.
4. Able t take care of my sick boy! :)

Well I'm not having sufficient sleep. Only slept for 2 hours? :/ killllllllllllllll. A quarter of my day was spent there, 3hrs dedicated t taking care of him & I must say, I make a good nurse!! hahahahahahaha. loveloveloveloveloveloveloveyoubabyboy! (L)

I hate th holz. My body is not functioning well. Not at all. RAH. I want school t start. But, I wont be seeing baby as often anymorez. Whywhywhy so cruel. 80l

2009-06-23T00:48:00.002+08:00

Take care of yourself k baby! I love you! xoxo :)

2009-06-22T01:12:00.002+08:00

I'm wearing your shirt, loveeeeeeeeeeeeee :) hahahhahahaa. omg I look like I've got buck tooth in th third picture :B hee, itoy (L)

I went t L4D with van today! Omg I swear we're addicted t it man! Damn niceeeeee :) and then we towned after that. In th train home, there was this pretty chinese woman(which you'd prolly think that she'd be graceful & ladylike) who started t scratch in SICKENING places on her body k. Her armpits, her dirty neck, her arms, her waist(which she lifted her jacket up t do so) and then under her bra strap, and inside. WHICH IS SO NOT GRACEFUL AND UNLADYLIKE. She had red spots all over.

If she has chickenpox, then she's so unconsiderate! I mean, hello? I have never gotten it, and no thank you, I don't wna get it. And there was this guy who was rudely coughing his way throughout th journey, without covering his mouth.

People, please think for others, I don't wna die so early from any possible, undiscovered diseases. Kkthxz.

Oh yea, L4D @ 1pm tmrwwwwwwwwww :) :) :)!

2009-06-20T20:14:00.002+08:00

Awesome new song from ~~Katy Perry~~ LILY ALLEN I mean! FUCK YOU :o)

2009-06-20T17:35:00.002+08:00

I'm reverting back t my old sleeping ways, and it's th last week of th hols. Gawd it's so hard t adjust back t my normal good self :/ ok anyway! I completed whatever I was doing @ 7.20am this morning :O totally made ok! So proud of myself ^^ hahahahahaha.

Now, my mind's so messed up, (pauses t smell hair- omg my hair smells damn nice!), it's cluttered with so many things which I don't think I can figure what each of them are. Cause it's so messy! Cant think straight whywhywhy.

Anyway, I NEED MONEY. Who doesnt? But why are some people just so privileged huhuh?? I bet Vanna knows who I'm talking about. Rah.

2009-06-19T19:36:00.004+08:00

(omg picture so blur)

:) happy first month baby! <3

Glad that you stayed over & what you made for me :) will treasure it for life! hahahahhaa. & this is one of th best mornings so far this year! All this will be etched in my head for life and i love you love you love you alot! :)

Rah, if only we weren't pigs(waking up only at 6pm :/), but ah well love having you beside me. hahahhahaha, I'm not actually thinking properly right now, and think that I totally am not constructing proper sentences. But heck it k, th whole purpose for this post is t tell you that, I appreciate you, treasure you, adore you, love you, & I'm sticking t you for life too bad :B

And I really miss you right now, and I DO WNA GO CLUB WITH YOU K. Really broke lah :/ sooooooo you'll always be my baby boy & once again, LOVE YOU HONEY HAPPY 1ST MONTH <3>(inserts a gazillion kisses&hugs)

2009-06-17T23:10:00.002+08:00

Ate at Seoul Garden, played L4D & now I'm home. That should sum up my day.

OMG. 11:11!! Well, I hope it's him :/ does 11:11 mean anything anymore? I wonder.

Yet another button flew off my handphone, 5 gone, 1 more t go. Hahahahahhaa. I'm weird :3 don't feel like texting anyone with this fucked up phone. Can I get a sidekick please oh please? :)
Vanna told me about th Mona Lisa thing today and she asked me t go for it, who wants t go with me? :D I reallyreallyreally wna go & see it!

Ah, damn sick & tired now, ima go and shower first then prolly hit th sack!

Adieu!

2009-06-17T02:29:00.002+08:00

He's out clubbing, having fun. I'm at home, failing t sleep. And I'm dead hungry too. Oh, th call of hunger. Managed t find my box of uneaten beehoon since noon in th fridge. Thought it would be fine t eat, but noooooooooo, it's so muthafucking cold!! Well, isn't this pathetic? Huh? Huh?

Good morning :o/

2009-06-17T00:11:00.001+08:00

Beyonce's new song, Brokenhearted Girl. Check it out! :) I'm in love with it.

I don't wanna be without you baby~

2009-06-16T22:23:00.002+08:00

Ok. I woke up at 4.30pm today, and was gna have tuition @ 5pm. I was late. Broke (really), and super duper tired. Anyway, had an awesome 2 hours of fun yesterday night! :) danced like crazy, an I was introduced t a whole different side of life! Best thing of it was, baby being there with me :) hahahaha.

Had a damn good time shopping yesterday! Splurged, literally. I feel so happy. :3 gawd, I'm having a fever & flu. COULD IT BE H1N1??? stay away from me! :) hahahahahhaa. I told th doc that I wna be admitted t th hospital. He laughed!! It's not funny k, I just wna feel what it's like t be there lol :/

& sg's getting t be so scary, I mean, won't people get paranoid? Strangers start t sneeze/cough and you go like, whoaaaa does he have it? what if I get it?!, ok maybe I'm th only one who thinks like that, but this is scary ok!

Anyway, miss him miss him miss him. And ima go and shower now, so au revoir :)

2009-06-14T11:40:00.002+08:00

Goddddddd, I'm so damn bored. :/ TELL ME WHY IS LIFE SO DULL. To me, th world is gray. And at this point I don't feel like changing it t make it any better. Baby's sleeping and idk what t do :3 i love him so so much :B hahhahahahahhaa. lolol, th nearest thing t me now is a hld puncher. It's pink. I hate pink. Ok, it really depends actually lol, shit I'm really really bored.

Daddy hasn't fixed up th whole home theatre thingy lol. And why is everyone gg overseas!! I want too, but i cant :( stupid shit. I need t shop @ m'sia. Why am I not granted this simple wish! Rah. Did I say how much I love my baby? LOVE HIM T DEATHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Looks so cute when he's sleeping hahahahhahahahaha :o}

2009-06-13T22:54:00.002+08:00

I'm finally home! :) Went for th F1 pit flea with vc today, AWESOMEEEEEEE. hahahaha. Th location was good, th space was huge, many, many good bargains & clothes. Thumbs up. But I didnt have enough cash! >:( THUMBS DOWN. Well anyway, I saw many people today. People who made me happy, annoyed & one who just took my breath away. I swearrrrr :3

Left at about 7, headed down t novena t meet my family. Had dinner & played pool :) an extra cup of starbucks gg along with it will be a great combo yaw. Anyway, iamsotirednow. And i'm waiting for baby t decide on whether he's coming over today. Hope he says yes! Anyway, ima go and shop nowwwwww. Ciaoo.

Oh! Oh! Daddy bought a projector + screen!!!! Watching movies at home, awesome, but there wont be th great surround sound though :/

2009-06-12T23:39:00.003+08:00

Hi!! This blog is finally up. Well, I just thought of getting one again after th other died. Couldn't really decide on lj or blogger, modern or classic templates. But heck, i'd just settle with this first cause it's rather simple and nice, and see what I can do with it along th way! :)

Au revoir :o)