12 hours of sleep last night ^^ teehee so happy hahahahahah. Nothing makes me happier than long hours of sleep. I think th shot cut to my satisfaction is death! Th truthhhhhhhhhhh.

Had oral today, only classmates and mummy asked me how was it :( why no one care about me one huhuh. lolol jkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk :) godddddd I really am hopeful. Hope I can pass k, Mrs Jacob was like -.- at first but she was like :) at th end, so I *TWIST MY FINGERS* hope for th best!

This week is just SO PACKED. Ugh, I hardly have time for anything, and when I manage to make time for people and things, it all fails -.- really ah. I shouldn't anymore until it's like 100%-guarantee-plus-chop confirmed.

SUNDAY IS ONCE AGAIN, TH FLEA MARKET THINGY WHERE I'LL BE HAVING A STALL WITH VC&VAN SO ALL MUST GO K. REMINDERREMINDERLIKEEVERYDAYK:B

&&&&&&&cant wait for this saturday&next!! COZCOZ this saturday gg out with B&L&S & we gg to walkwalkwalk to many places, check out stuffz. Then next saturday is action time :):) you'll see me with extra sth, or less of sth? Heh, we so happyyyy :)

HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY

:) POA was th bombz. Really. We got so bored, we only thought of ditching th class for library. Hahahahha, we did it. Or rather, Serene did it.

Serene : Teacher, can we go to the library?
Teacher(about there): Yeah, sure, just go. No point in staying here if you're going to fidget and not learn. Distracting the class and distracting me. So if you want to go, just go to the library.
(Some of us discussdiscuss then...)

12 stood up and left. Really half of th class left, after excluding th absentees and non-POA students. H.i.l.a.r.i.o.u.s.I.S.w.e.a.r.

THAT'S ALL FOLKS HEE :)

Alrightyyyyyyyy. People! All must come to th flea market held for th FIRST TIME @ St. James this Sunday ok!! It's from 12pm-4pm so y'all better show your faces ah! hahahahhaha. COME LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. K?! :B

Ima be there with vc&van& other people's stuffz, so pleezplz support k? :) NINI YOU BETTER GO HEH. Anyhooza, just got done with tuition.

Rah kill me now got so many tuition I stress want die and dont feel like using comma cause this is how my life is on and on and then it gets boring and hard to understand(read in this case).

Okkkkkk I cant wait for SATURDAY, gg out with B,L,S :) whee ^^ omg and aug 8 too! Im gna get it baby. \m/ cantwaitcantwait. k nao i wann l4dddddd :8) HAHAHAHA HIPPO FACE.

lolllllllllllllllllllllllllllll ^^

P.S: omg have been seeing my ex-crushes this 2 weeks, I so knew that I was gna see N this week, and I did, TODAY. Who's next man, A hasn't surfaced since 5 months ago. Or is it K? I alrdy saw T's name in a L4D server&trust me his nick isnt common. Hmm, I got to find out who G is, last week.. met up with M, saw JJJJJ :):):), has been 3 years oh god. Havent seen S since idkwhen lol. Another, H, he's like faraway. Or J? He's attached! :) happy for you asshole. Or J? My first ever lolol..................................................... seems like alot right rofl, but noooooooooo, it's not hehe, took place over th last three years kkkk. Mutual love between us friendzzz. that's all :)

See, my smile so fake alrdy :(

"I saw your face, in a crowded place, and I don't know what to do...
Guess I'll never be with you."

Sighhhhhhh

He makes an effort to spend time with you

"If you enjoy being in someone's company, you will naturally want to spend more time with that person"
...
"If he doesn't, do ask yourself why would he even be asking you to go into any sort of a mutually exclusive relationship."

Why don't you answer this question for me?

Anywayzzzzzzzz, I'm gg out nowwwwww ^^ I want to hug my baobeiixzxzxzxzxz LOL.

Brushing all my thoughts away, slowly. Changes will be made. Slowly reverting back to my old life, if you know what I mean. Anyway, I'm really not gna give a shit to people/things that bring me down nowadays. I'm gna be happy again! Ok, I hope I do.. :/

L4D-ed for 3 hours ytd wth van, met cass and we caught Harry Potter, it really isn't boring really. Met Mario at night, has been long since we last met. Funny how people dont change, hahha.

Flea with van today again, had no mood really but I managed to get 2 awesome tops :) hoho can't wait for aug 2nd's! I'm really gna start living my life, my way now.

P.S: Sorry, I've tried. We're not gna be as close anymore, but I'm learning to accept th fact.

I want to make things right, it's up to you if you want to now, really.

Stumbled upon this while blog-hopping, take a look!

“ Wait for the person who pursues you, the one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical, the kind of person who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person ; wait for the person who will be your best friend, the only person who will drop everything to be with you at any time no matter what the circumstances, for the person who makes you smile like no one else
and when they smile you know they need you. Wait for the person who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats and a tee shirt, but appreciates it when you get dressed up for them. And most of all, wait for the person who will put you up at the center of their universe, because that’s where you belong."

I'm off to tuition now! BYE.

confucius

Idk how am I supposed to confess to my mummy that I lost one side of my contact lens :( I'm so afraid that she'll scold me. It'll cost me 110 bucks to replace one ok!! ShemurderIscream lolol. Coz of my current temp lens, my eyes are slowly swelling up, like last time! Ugh, I don't want eye infectionz :( howhowhow?

I've got so many things on my mind right now, and definitely many things to say to match it up. I can't find th right words though... However, I feel that I'm not being me. I want to say what I like, and at that, say what I feel is right. I'm trying to make things work, can't you tell? Don't know if it applies to you as well but whatever, srsly.

Meeting once a week? Hello? Anyone who is experiencing this as well?? Please tell me. I bet no one does though. I dont like it, I hate it. Really. Not like you're schooling or working or anything, you're practically doing nothing, so I don't see a reason why we can't meet. Anyway, I don't want to be called naggy or get scolded again, so I'll just shut up.

Srsly, any other girl being treated like that as well?
Unfair.

Anyhoo, I'm not gg to school tmrw! ^^ yayayay friday too, hahahahahhahahaa. CANT WAIT FOR WHAT'S TAKING PLACE ON FRIDAY :) :)

Bummed that I didn't get to watch Harry Potter as planned, but Obsessed turned out alright! :) Ali is one hot, good actress & Beyonce is one hot, good fighting bitch! Y'all should totally go catch it, it's not too bad. But halfway through th show, I just wanted to walk out. There's sth about these kinda "affair" shows thingy that makes me unable to sit still. Hate it.

Anyway, th day started out horribly, but throughout it all, it flowed smoothly and quickly like th blood of a second-day menses. Ok ewwwwww :/ cant believe I just said that, but it's so true! :B hahhahahhaha. People just kept making me giggle and laugh today. IDK WHY. BUT I LOVE IT.

I want happiness. I want to be happy again! Please oh please make me happy someone, anyone!

Random stuff, but I want to be proposed to atop th Eiffel Tower with a sentence that goes like this "Je t'aime, veux-tu m'epouser?" :) :) :) oh god oh god oh god.

I love dreaming but pleaseplease make it real!

Really really suffering :( :( saw a doctor earlier on, again, and th doctor gave me another 2 days of mc. I pray I really do get better :( I need a miracle, actually no, I just need rest.

J'ai besoin d'aide.

15 minutes since I've came home from school. Sickkkkkkkk. I can't stand it! My throat hurts like mad & I keep coughing. Now, I have flu. Best. Just give me H1N1 alrdy :/

I can't finish my food and I'm reallyreally tired. Couldn't sleep properly last night. And this is th first time that I attended school for 1+ hours :o I need to shit now, byeeeeeee :(

Sad thing.

Without knowing, something happy becomes something sad.
People start to die.
Friends, close ones too, start to disappear.
Loved ones, perish.
Soon it turns into a game, everyone for themselves.
Everyone stuck in this game, Game of Betrayal & Survival.

Friends kill each other, they lose control.
You become skeptical, so do I.
Trust, is that even a word now?
Weapons on the table, defense or attack?
Slowly, the number decreases and you're all alone.
What do you do?

Die.

This put a smile to my sick face. Ahhh, my throat hurts alot :(

Ok, I don't know how many of you have alrdy figured out th meaning of th song "If U Seek Amy" by Britney, but I just did. Turns out there's a meaning to th song. And Ima help those who don't know, decipher it.

So, she's really saying F U C K me. F(If), U (You), C (See-), K (k-A)-ME(my)

Love me hate me say what you want about me
All of the boys and all of the girls are beggin’ to F.U.C.K.ME
Love me hate me but can't you see what I see
All of the boys and all of the girls are beggin' to F.U.C.K.ME

GEDDITGEDDIT? Thought this song only not made sense to me. But now it does hahahaha. Anyway, I am down with th fever. It got up as high as to 41.2. Scaryscary. Went to th hospital ytd night. I don't have H1N1. :/ impossibleeeeee.

Love came over ytd to take care of me :) thank you baby. If no one took care of me ytd, I bet I'd have died. Coz mummy and daddy left me to die at home. And I was suffering, MISERABLE. :(

I need to go out soon, for coffee or sth. Not right now, I can't taste nor eat shitz. Sigh.

I hope I get into a hospital so he can visit me. hehehaha. I bet if he knows I'm sick, he'll visit! :) sighhhhhhhhhhhh :/

Anyway, th clinic I went to wasnt a surgical clinic or whatever, they cant check if I've that, so, I'll just live like that for now :)

On th plus side, I've got a mc! Teachers tmrw, eat my shitttttttttt :) ahhahahahahhaa. I can stay home, hopefully he comes. Or else. Ha.

21 guns, this song makes me think of -----. (Y)

I feel so sick now :( it started off with me just being super lethargic, tired, shaggy and all. And then I th headache came. Th SUPERSUPERBAD headache. My head felt so heavy, as if I store gold bars in my skull. Had problems walking at my normal speed, couldnt cough(I have cough) & I have a sore throat. NEITHER COULD I LAUGH :( rah.

Now, I have muscle aches & fever of temperature, 39.1°C.

I FEEL HORRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What if I get H1N1? oo, hospital! ^^ hahahahhahhaha. Stupid I know. Sigh, hope I get a MC.

Doctor pleezzzzzzzzzz? You look like a picture today! :B

So, so sad. Sigh. Emotions overload. :(

(I do swear that I'll always be there.
I'd give anything and everything and I will always care.
Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better, for worse,
I will love you with every beat of my heart.)

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

I LOVE YOU SASI :)

♥♥♥♥♥

lanoitomE

I have a sprained leg :( it's so so pain. I dont even know how it happened. &&& I've got th menses on heavy flow mode :( :( Anyway, I just came back from "thinking" session, an hour or more. It's happening again, I want it to go away. Sigh, why I so emo. I really need someone who can stand, understand, (know how to)cheer me up. Better still, rush over just coz I'm sad so we can snog and all :)

Wishful thinking. Life's a bitch.

Katy Perry - Thinking Of You. When I broke up with my ex and met this other guy, T, I could so relate to that song. Now when I think back, I feel very sad. He was very nice to me, treated me good and all. Too good, I took him for granted, too much niceness. Hurt him did I. Regret, but it's good, I'm learning to appreciate my love now. I know I will. But I need to do something right now.

T, I know you wont see this, but I need to hug you at least, my apologies. Really hope we stay friends forever.

Omggggggg, I srsly cant stand myself, I need someone who can. Oh and I'm gg to ask all my nearby friends out alrdy IDC, school friends all live purple line, so farrrrrr. Vc simei, further -.- M, K, B, K WHEN CAN Y'ALL GO OUT, v long never meet alrdyyyyyyyyyyyyy. hahahahahahaha gg out with 2 of them this week though :) ok happy alrdy.

I need to go to france, pronto.

Beyonce ftw, always. Tribute to MJ.

Went out with baby today :) my mood was relatively good throughout! ahahhaha. I just kept smiling th whole time, mostly coz I got to see him and all. And I was supposed to go for th event with van but I lost my mood for that and I'M SO SORRY VAN. Really, truly am sorry ok. I owe you one! :(

My period played a part. 2nd day somemore. Best righttttttttt :/ and I even wore my I ♥ MJ tank today all prepped for th event. Rah. Suckz ballz.

Anyhoo, I enjoyed today even though it was 3 hours(?), it was fun :) hope you'll come by tmrw love, miss you!

OMG I AM SO SO HAPPY! I FEEL LIKE I CAN KEEP BOUNCING ALL MY LIFEEEEEEE ^^

I just went on a no-expense "shopping trip" :) to my mummy's closet that is. All her clothing from young, oh god, they aren't tacky at all! They are super chio!! ahahahahaha and I picked up 6 handbags, vintage super chio shoes, an authentic LV wallet & PRADA handbag. I'm th happiest girl in th whole wide world right now, I definitely am.

& I'm not even done "shopping" >:)

I feel so happy today! Oh, and th shopping trip isn't th only thing that made me happy. Well, I was on my way to popular @ cwp to pick up a book with mummy. And omg guess what. I met Russell Lee! :) YAY. hahahahaha ok I may sound silly and all, but hey, I like his books(even though th stories are made up) & he is mysterious, which makes it all better :)

I got an autograph and he said I look COOL k! HAHAHHAHAA. WUV HIM ^^ and I took a picture with him!!

Ok, I looked hideous coz I was surrounded by people & was like naturally nervous coz I MET HIM. & I totally forgot how to smile. And yes, I was in home clothes. How was I to know! :/

Cool kkkkkkkkkkkkkthnxbai.

Time to start resting

So it's th start of th weekend now. TGIF :) iamsosleepdeprived. I have taken three after-school days just t catch up on my lack of sleep! THREE DAYS. And it's not enough. Nono.

Damn, I've been really messed up in my head these past few days. Sigh, I don't know why either. Feeling rather apathetic but very vexed at th same time. Whywhywhy :( I want t be happy again. Like, really REALLY happy man. Just laughing all th time, and this happy period only happened once(as far as I can recall) which was i think, only from th second week of may to third week of june?

Sigh. All good things will def come to an end, like they say. lanjiaoz :/ hahhahaa (lol im laughing at my choice of shit words). I want t get it ALL back. Nownownow, I so expected all this shitz. But, ilystill. :)

P.S: Can't wait to win money from th 3 events. Hohoho. Money come to meeeee. Rofl, money hungry me C:

My hp's being a bitch again!!! Like this is th second time it's doing this t me. Ugh. So pissed. There is no connection within th phoneline and company or sth!! Rah. I was just about t send a text t my tuition teacher and baby! >:( and idk how long it's gg t take t clear this shit! Stupid shitz.

Anyway, about today, everyone knows about it, and a small thing shook th whole school up. Damn, actually I feel that PL girls arent that heartless afterall! Everyone's feeling it, and I guess it's a good thing right? But oh well, too many shocks this week alrdy. MJ's thing still gg on and everything. Sigh, why make it worse God? :/

I prayed twice today, better than other days(hey i'm not christian&i'm not really into praying, but I do once in awhile) and I prayed for quite alot of people. And I really hope that we all can see th rainbow and sunshine, after th rain. :) smile k! Dont be gloomy :)

OK. Enough about unhappy stuff. I lost 4 kg man! Whoaaaaaa, I cant believe it I swear and hahahahhahaa im damn happy about it ^^ and no i'm not gg on a diet or anything. Counted th number of school days left and came up with 92. 3 months? And exactly 30 school days t th next exam :/ cant wait to graduate man. I wna get out of this shithole, and I mean PL. Really.

Saw Mario today, hahahhaha looks so different! It's funny how people can change in many ways in a couple of days/weeks etc. That's one thing that makes life interesting!

Ugh, phone still having concussion, damn annoyeddddddddddddd.